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23-1-09
A special day¬
The day where my final exam paper end¬
The day where one of day i think a lot¬
Is like a pieces of memory in my mind¬
Crumble... all around for the day¬
Erm... strted with my last paper...financial accounting II...
Doin quite well strting... but suddenly stomacache... A disaster for me...
The mood is 180;c chgs....
Thinking of doing two calculation changing to theory...
Sux...
When mind can't work properly wer as i can do it...
Well... proceed from that... going for k wif frds...
Erm... long time nvr been so...
Voice becoming kinda weird...
With a cold starting at the beginning but later starting to be going better... den quite enjoy listening and singing with shu yi...
Hehe... doin some stupid moves... waving wif the music... songs... kinda cool feeling...
Love that particular feel very much¬
With all seperated den left keno and me.... Shopping around... Suddenly found myself to be a old man... haha¬ 20 years old + 1 month old man...
Supposing last time "yeng", "lala" style found it to be ugly but strting to like normal and formal... omg! Am i that old?
Continuing waiting and met up wif marcus... den his gf xiao ling... den going to bbq plaza enjoy¬
Met up wif mok and py... HAha¬ finally they become couple already... So glad for mok... but so jealous of me...
Haihz, jealous coz might be feeling to look for one...
Den strted to hate myself can't releasing myself from memory... Maybe i did... But juz lack of confidence... Haha... Somehow i do think i look ugly...
But juz when if goes to bf and gf relationship i think. Others i dun have tis feeling...
I trust on doing things within capability... confidence in settling things if my determination is strong enough... But onli....
Maybe need something to pull me to be brave to it...
Thinking of first person i like... The most stupiest action i had ever made is using sms to confess... Wif a straight reject of no... Haha... juz some kind of puppy luv...
Den met a gal in ice skating... Started my first relationship with action taken by the gal.... Haha... I really... but i ended the relationship wif her "peacefully"... still friends... cool enough...
Goin into college... started to like a gal... of coz not so childish already... but after communication... found that she like someone else... i like totally loose of confidence... nvr thinking of getting back... nvr thinking of fighting... juz like give up as long as she happy.
Finally she wif that guy and i'm juz feeling sad myself....
Telling myself to be giving up but will be still missing of her... den sometimes will chat...
Suddenly thought of one thing...
Doin taxation assigment... she gave me a test... psychology characteristic test... den bla bla bla stuff explaination... den she strt telling quite true... but actually i strt to find out is not really i juz asuming all her saying is right... since when i strt to give my own point but juz following around...
Maybe juz to her...
Den alwiz reminding myself - frd, thats all. But sometimes midnite she will sms me when she sad. Argue wif her bf... den my heart will strted to pain... Den will thinking of my giving up is correct or not but maybe is all too late...
Coz she really in luv wif that guy...
Hate when my mind easily be influenced by her... Telling myself to giv up but one sms enough to chg it...
Omg...
It...
Sometimes, if u like someone... dun care u are boy or girl... brave to take ur action!
Maybe i should gave myself a chance...
Maybe...
Maybe for someone to be appear...
But sometimes i juz scare when someone like me more it will be ended like first relationship... Maybe it will not... Who noe's? Maybe all should be given a chance to try? Is it?
I wonder...
Maybe if it happened... i think will give it a try... i dun want to make myself to be in deep depressing easily again anymore¬
A special day¬
The day where my final exam paper end¬
The day where one of day i think a lot¬
Is like a pieces of memory in my mind¬
Crumble... all around for the day¬
Erm... strted with my last paper...financial accounting II...
Doin quite well strting... but suddenly stomacache... A disaster for me...
The mood is 180;c chgs....
Thinking of doing two calculation changing to theory...
Sux...
When mind can't work properly wer as i can do it...
Well... proceed from that... going for k wif frds...
Erm... long time nvr been so...
Voice becoming kinda weird...
With a cold starting at the beginning but later starting to be going better... den quite enjoy listening and singing with shu yi...
Hehe... doin some stupid moves... waving wif the music... songs... kinda cool feeling...
Love that particular feel very much¬
With all seperated den left keno and me.... Shopping around... Suddenly found myself to be a old man... haha¬ 20 years old + 1 month old man...
Supposing last time "yeng", "lala" style found it to be ugly but strting to like normal and formal... omg! Am i that old?
Continuing waiting and met up wif marcus... den his gf xiao ling... den going to bbq plaza enjoy¬
Met up wif mok and py... HAha¬ finally they become couple already... So glad for mok... but so jealous of me...
Haihz, jealous coz might be feeling to look for one...
Den strted to hate myself can't releasing myself from memory... Maybe i did... But juz lack of confidence... Haha... Somehow i do think i look ugly...
But juz when if goes to bf and gf relationship i think. Others i dun have tis feeling...
I trust on doing things within capability... confidence in settling things if my determination is strong enough... But onli....
Maybe need something to pull me to be brave to it...
Thinking of first person i like... The most stupiest action i had ever made is using sms to confess... Wif a straight reject of no... Haha... juz some kind of puppy luv...
Den met a gal in ice skating... Started my first relationship with action taken by the gal.... Haha... I really... but i ended the relationship wif her "peacefully"... still friends... cool enough...
Goin into college... started to like a gal... of coz not so childish already... but after communication... found that she like someone else... i like totally loose of confidence... nvr thinking of getting back... nvr thinking of fighting... juz like give up as long as she happy.
Finally she wif that guy and i'm juz feeling sad myself....
Telling myself to be giving up but will be still missing of her... den sometimes will chat...
Suddenly thought of one thing...
Doin taxation assigment... she gave me a test... psychology characteristic test... den bla bla bla stuff explaination... den she strt telling quite true... but actually i strt to find out is not really i juz asuming all her saying is right... since when i strt to give my own point but juz following around...
Maybe juz to her...
Den alwiz reminding myself - frd, thats all. But sometimes midnite she will sms me when she sad. Argue wif her bf... den my heart will strted to pain... Den will thinking of my giving up is correct or not but maybe is all too late...
Coz she really in luv wif that guy...
Hate when my mind easily be influenced by her... Telling myself to giv up but one sms enough to chg it...
Omg...
It...
Sometimes, if u like someone... dun care u are boy or girl... brave to take ur action!
Maybe i should gave myself a chance...
Maybe...
Maybe for someone to be appear...
But sometimes i juz scare when someone like me more it will be ended like first relationship... Maybe it will not... Who noe's? Maybe all should be given a chance to try? Is it?
I wonder...
Maybe if it happened... i think will give it a try... i dun want to make myself to be in deep depressing easily again anymore¬
